Volcanic Cancer

Bolder and Cindo

It's taking our beloved Bolder down. Cindy and Bolder saw the chemo specialist yesterday. He only had bad news for them. For whatever reason, cancer is spreading like lava through Boldie's body. Fucking Volcanic Cancer. The doc said he could try some trial treatment and spend his time in the hospital being a pin-cushion - with no guarantees. Or he could go home and wait. What would you choose.

They did give him a hormone shot yesterday, and some type of new pills. He's not in terrible pain at this point - just is experiencing awful itching. Cindy says he looks like he's been beaten with a chain - likely because his bone marrow isn't functioning properly. He doesn't have much of an appetite, but I was glad to hear he still went to Etown - his favorite bar with Colby recently.

I talked to Cindo today. It was good to speak to her in person - and not just get my info from texts like I did yesterday during lunch. Texting while I sat outside Jimmy Johns and tried to keep a stiff upper lip. I chewed food that tasted like cardboard, reading words that couldn't possibly be true. Bolder is going to die soon.

The news was so surreal. How can it be possible? The doctor says Bold may only have a couple weeks to live. I'm glad their son Colby lives in the Vail Valley. That he lives close is such good support for his parents. When they left the Doctor's, despite wanting to dissolve in a puddle, they needed to do things like talk about a funeral and call hospice. It just sucks so bad!  

We all want to be with them, but don't want to overwhelm and tire them out. Paul and I are driving out there Sunday. Susi will head over from Grand Junction. Betsy is flying in. Amy will come and Jud is considering coming too. Our family (my sisters and Paul) loves Boldie like a brother - he's a tenderhearted soul who wears his heart on his sleeve. He loved our parents. He's cried with us when we're sad and is happy when he knows we are happy. He cheers for the Cyclones because we do! (He wears an ISU cap and crewneck sweat shirt in our honor).

We'll be together to hug Bolder, Cindy and Colby. We'll cry and we'll laugh. I'll be able to tell Bold how much I appreciate him - and how well he's loved my sis. Even though we've called them "the Bickersons". Yep - they're one of those couples - crabbing at each other about dumb things. It's the patter of their marriage. Ying/Yang. He comes in the house and yells, "Cindo!" at the top of his lungs and watches ESPN on mach 10 sound level. That irritates Cindy. Man how she'll miss it.

For now, I'm glad we're heading to see them. Families should be together at a time like this. Please keep the circle of your prayers surrounding us. Thank you!